Sunday, May 04, 2008

More, more, more

The concept of "more" has been on my mind the last few weeks. I think it began after listening to a sermon on faith and having enough faith. And then it came up again when I wanted more of something. We always want more.

More sleep
More food
More time
More money
More stuff
More friends
More time to spend with friends
More passion and enthusiasm for ministry (that might just be me)
More faith
More time to spend creating
More time with family
More time...more time seems to be a theme...

I wonder how someone becomes content. People always tell me that it is when one become content with their life that they meet the person they are going to marry. When they least expect it. How does one become content then?

I've certainly been trying. I've tried faking contentment. It doesn't work. I tend to be conent for one or two weeks at a time and then something happens that makes me discontent. I think I start to get hopeful that since I'm content, something is going to happen! So is that REALLY contentment? I don't know.

I know that overall, I'm happy with my life. Sure, I'd like to lose a little more weight. Sure, I'd like to always be the faithful, godly woman I'm supposed to aspire to. Sometimes I'm there, but more often than not, I am not that woman yet. Maybe with more time I'll get there.

There goes that theme again...more time...

8 comments:

Angela said...

dear friend, i understand.
i don't agree with that whole "when you least expect it" because I can be least expecting it, and then I realize I'm least expecting it, and then according to their theory, I have to start all over again...
I don't have an answer, other than to say you've put great words to where I am as well. Know you aren't alone in this one. :)
and when you figure out how to have more time, let me know.

Erin said...

Amen sister! I think that I'm the queen of least expecting and then knowing I'm least expecting! At the rate I'm going, I'll never be least expecting in the way that I'm supposed to least expect.

I'll be praying for the season of content to come back in full force for a while! I've been in a season of discontent recently too, but it's shifting!

erin

Kari said...

Ahhh...I'm in grande company then! :) Thanks for the words of love and encouragement ladies! They mean the world to me. It's amazing how it becomes such a cycle. You're both in my prayers!

Erin said...

Thanks Kari, I think that all singles - especially girls during the spring - go through this season. It just seems more poinnent in the spring. I also am going through a season of being unable to spell! :) Prayers are heading your way.

Kari said...

Erin, you are so right...it is something about this time of year...I had a fifteen min. discussion about it with the manager at the art store where I buy clay for school. She's possibly more frustrated than I am. I'm sure my issues have nothing to do with three weddings this summer and a bazillion babies being born...nothing... ;-)

Erin said...

yeah...right...no issues with any of your good friends major life changes...none at all. i'm sure that is the two mango margaritas talking too. Jose can be so smart...felize cinco de mayo! :) still praying!

Erin said...

yeah...right...no issues with any of your good friends major life changes...none at all. i'm sure that is the two mango margaritas talking too. Jose can be so smart...felize cinco de mayo! :) still praying!

Craig Harmann said...

I struggle with contentment too....I guess it's more of a selfish thing. I want what I want and I want it NOW! It's been a struggle, when you want to start a family, and are unable to, and everyone else around you is having babies left and right. At this point, that's what God wants for us. Why? Don't know, but that's not my place to figure out. However, when we were in Wisconsin, we weren't content at all, and wanted more. Now, that we have it, we're able to appreciate it, because we went through the bad. You in our prayers.