This was the wackiest week of emotions. I felt so fatigued and listless while at work for the first three days of the week. I was still exercising...on two different days twice, but I didn't seem to get many endorphins. By Wednesday night I was worried. Listless, out of focus, and feeling nothing are all symptoms I experienced when I suffered from depression for awhile. I went to counseling and took an anti-depressant for about a year. Thankfully the combo did the trick and I've been off the ADs for 15 months.
So, all that is to say I was scared I was slipping back into the depression and would have to go back on the ADs. This didn't thrill me with the wedding in less than a month.
After a good conversation with Jason where I just layed it all out there, we ended with prayer and I fell asleep more peacefully than I have in quite awhile. What a BLESSING! Thursday was good. I was much more focused on work and had a great night at Bible study. I even had enough energy to come home and pick-up a ton. The house wasn't trashed, but there were still shower gifts sitting out, etc. They are now nicely packed in a box ready to move to Biloxi. It's a little sad to put them away, but it will make July tons of fun to rediscover them!
Today was awesome and I'm happily looking forward to my friend Marissa coming over so she, Bethany and I can eat "homemade" pizza, drink a little wine and enjoy some homemade guacamole. :)
So an answer to the fatigue and listlessness? Stress. I hate to admit I suffer from it, but with planning the wedding, doing essentially two jobs, missing Jason, etc, I think my body was telling me I need to go easy on myself. Lots of prayers helped come to this conclusion. :)
Have a fabulous weekend!